Gary, 34, tells us of how he had self-esteem and confidence issues that almost drove him to suicide – until he received a lingam massage”

Life Before Lingam

Low self-esteem, lack of confidence, anxiety and depression are all issues that so many people across the world suffer from on a daily basis. I guess one thing I have in common with these people is the fact that these feelings grow from a life experience that we have had, that in turn, affects us for many years in a negative way. For many years I tortured myself for feeling like this, and it wasn’t until I was much older I came to understand that is was not my fault.

I grew up just outside of London with my parents and my two older brothers. Both my older brothers were intelligent, handsome and incredible at sport. I, on the other hand, was the runt of the family. Although there was only a year between each of us, they towered over me, their voices sounding like men by the age of sixteen, while I sounded like a little girl. I wasn’t the best looking guy ever, while they got my mother’s dark hair and hazel eyes, I got my dad’s wiry ginger locks and white pasty skin. People would complement my mother on my brother’s looks and size when we were out and about and simply dismissed that I was even there. This stemmed a huge lack of confidence in my character and I became a recluse. I didn’t want to go out with my family, I pretended that they weren’t my brothers because I was so sick of being compared to them, and I didn’t have any friends. I spent most of my evenings home alone in my room playing the PlayStation, with zero interaction with others. I was angry and hated my appearance, I blamed myself for getting the bad side of the gene pool and it affected me terribly. I resented my brothers and my relationship with my parents had gone downhill. I was lonely, and I was a loner.

These feelings of self-hate and self-loathing continued and only increased further when I went to university. However, I moved up north to Manchester and took this as an opportunity to reinvent myself. Nobody knew me here, and even if I suffered my self-esteem issues and had no confidence, I could always pretend I did. Who would know, right?

After a few months at university I met a girl who had also joined the gaming society. She seemed quite introverted and shy which suited me, because I was very similar. We began to date and after a while we became very close which I was nervous about because I was still a virgin. This is where it all went downhill for me and my confidence hit rock bottom. When we were about to have sex, I was already extremely conscious about my body. However, it got even worse when she proceeded to make fun of my penis size, which resulted in us not having sex and breaking up. I was hurt, sad and mortified. I felt disgusting and worthless, like I would never deserve anybody’s love or affection. I stayed away from females for the next number of years after this.

Life after Lingam

The next ten years after this were very lonely and sad for me. At the age of thirty I was still a virgin and had not touched a girl since that horrible night. My relationship with my brothers had become closer, however I lied to them and pretended that I would go on dates with girls and that I had a lot of sex, which of course was not true.

However, little did I know my fate and life were about to change drastically. My oldest brother was getting married and for his stag do his friends decided that we should visit an erotic massage parlour in central London. I was panicked but couldn’t say no and blow my cover, and not participate in my own brother’s stag do. When we arrived at the massage parlour, the masseuse took me by the hand into a private room and undressed me. She asked me what service I wanted and I pointed my finger at the first option I could see on the menu. “I will give you a lingam massage” she said in a cute, oriental accent. I had no idea what I was in for, but it turned out to be life changing for me.

I was soon to find out that a lingam massage was an erotic massage that focuses mainly on the penis, tending to it and worshipping it. She gave me a full body to body naked massage which made me very aroused. Afterwards, she used her hands and fingers to rub up and down my penis which felt amazing. She applied lubricant on it which made the movement easier, creating a great level of pleasure for me. She then put my penis inside her mouth, using her tongue and lips to move my skin up and down, gently but firmly. Before I knew it she got on top of me and inserted my penis inside herself, moving up and down on it before I climaxed. It was the most intense feeling of my life.

For so many years I was ashamed of how I looked and embarrassed about my penis size. However, the masseuse helped me to come to terms with accepting myself and made me feel good about myself. I learnt to sop comparing myself to others, especially my brothers and celebrate who I am as a person. Receiving a lingam massage certainly changed my life.  I recommend anyone who suffers like I did in the past to try erotic massages, not only do they make you calm and at one with yourself, they also feel incredible. I never thought I would learn so much about myself from a massage.

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